I want to kill myself today. Somebody hold my hand. What makes today so much different than yesterday?
I feel as if all thoughts and emotions converged simultaneously and I can’t handle it.
My heart aches, my mind spins, my body shakes and its just too much to bare anymore.
At this precise moment, I want to die.
I want release.
I want a break, just for once, I want a break.
I realized that I am here to suffer. That’s my purpose in this world. Someone has got to be oppressed, someone has got to suffer and I am one of them.
A certain calmness came over me when I accepted this, but now. It’s just sadness and remorse.
So I’ll be here, performing my place in this world.
Until I can’t take it anymore and check out early, or my time comes.